Hope Finds Me

I'm sitting, listening to the woman's voice on the other end of the line, but I am unable to concentrate on any more of her words, not since she knocked my knees out from underneath me with her first sentence. "I just thought you should know, your husband is seeing someone." Simple as that...without remorse, without concern, without regard to the person she was addressing. Everything left in that moment, my faith, my smile, my breath; and no matter what I did, I knew I could never truly find them again. Stunned silence and gripping hands, that was all I had left, until they each walked over and hugged a leg, bringing me back to this room and this moment. Their smiles, their innocence, their love for me was all I needed in my search to get it all back together; and so that's what I am doing now, letting hope find me everyday......because of them.........and........despite him.

Reaching Her

Cries for help in the darkness

Not my darkness, but her own

Stretching a hand toward me

Then pulling back when I try to help

This dance...

I have spent minutes, hours

Days and even weeks

Searching for the way

But because of the darkness

I will be merely reaching out

Never touching, never grasping

Never truly

Reaching her.